its tuff to live alone...

my husband is in traveling job. its a known fact that i am shit scared to be alone, we were worried as to how will i manage all by myself. scared of what??? don’t laugh, but -ghosts; nah not seen any yet (and surely don't want to) also am scared of darkness and just the feeling of being alone.

2 weeks back he went on his first trip and i started shivering a month before the due date.

weekdays I manage by working till late night and once back home work from home till about 2 or 3 am, but don’t know what to do with my weekends. I don’t feel like cooking just for myself, since he has left i am living without breakfast and dinner, (on knowing this Gary's (my colleague) mom started sending dinner for me - man i am truly touched )

well i was some how coping , and had just started feeling happy looking at the countdown, knowing in 9 days he will be back, when he called to inform, his return is only for 2 weeks, post which he takes off again for a month. i was genuinely happy for him and his work, but had tears in my eyes. cannot define how i felt… i had been longingly waiting to have him back home. now i come came to know, even before we finish his unpacking he will be traveling again.

i wanted to share my misery with someone, but have no friends in town..none. felt like talking to someone,looked around and found no one. so thot of penning it down.

i felt very lonely, i had not been keeping well for few days now,also went thru my dips of depressions and am all alone , no one by my side, on top of that bomb of his trip dropped on my head, and the worst - no one ever calls me to ask if i have survived being alone, his family back home never enquires; no sms, no call,no email....nothing...

i feel very lonely.